My Testimony

As a young girl I craved attention and struggled with lust in so many different areas of my life. I always desired to be in a relationship because I wanted to fill the void I felt inside. I wanted to be loved, especially from the opposite sex, but at moments I also wrestled with same sex attraction, would watch p**n, struggled with gluttony, relationship hopped, dressed provocatively and the list could go on. Lust reared it’s ugly head in different areas of my life. It is a testimony in itself that I was able to remain a virgin until marriage. God kept me for my husband although I battled this spirit throughout my adolescence.

“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.”
- 1 Corinthians 10:13

I hung out with the wrong crowd

I didn’t always choose the best company. Sometimes I found myself in very compromising situations. That goes for friends AND boyfriends. I’ve been in friend groups where there was a lot of gossiping, drinking, and cursing. I have dated guys who were drug dealers, convicts, pot heads, secular rappers, and unbelievers.

I was always attracted to “bad boys” and people in darkness. Still even in those dark spaces, God was was cultivating my spiritual gifts. I had no idea at the time that He had called me to be an evangelist to the lost.

“Don’t be deceived, bad company corrupts good character.” - 1 Corinthians 15:33

I was thirst-trapping & people pleasing

I would set “thirst traps” through my pictures and my posing. I wanted people to see me and be attracted to me. I wanted to be “that girl” because my worth and validation used to come from men, rather than coming from God. This constant need for validation eventually led to people-pleasing, idolatry, and being in bondage to what people thought of me or whether or not they liked me.

From a young age I struggled heavily with rejection and desired to “fit in.” I always felt misunderstood and different from everyone else. So at times, I would compromise in order to meet the status quo.

“You are to be holy to me because I, the Lord, am holy, and I have set you apart from the nations to be my own.”
- Leviticus 20:26

Then God rended my heart...

The Lord saved me by pulling me out of a toxic relationship and situation that was leading me down the wrong path. He drew me with His love and rended my heart of sin. He delivered me and freed me from my lust and began to transform and heal me from the inside out.

It was not an overnight thing, nor was it a walk in the park. It was a true refinement process that required the fire of the Holy Spirit 🔥 cleansing me of everything that was not like Him.

I had to repent, lose relationships, break soul ties, and completely turn.

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” - 1 John 1:9

I had to fully surrender 🙌🏽

I wrestled with God for many years because even though he delivered me, I did not want to accept my call to deliverance. God was sending me out to deliver others. He was sending me to the darkest pitts of hell to draw back his children. The spiritual warfare was on another level and I did not want to deal with it. I thought being a christian was going to be easy, but it wasn’t. It required full reliance on the Holy Spirit 24/7. It required complete—not partial obedience. He wanted all of me. So finally, I gave in and completely surrendered.

“But Samuel replied,
“What is more pleasing to the Lord:
your burnt offerings and sacrifices
or your obedience to his voice? Listen!
Obedience is better than sacrifice,
and submission is better than offering the fat of rams.”
- 1 Samuel 15:22

I become a prayer warrior ⚔️

Praying is the weapon that has carried me through and sustained my walk with Christ. I realized that prayer is my direct line of communication with Heaven and if I want to truly partner with God to see His will come to pass in my life and on this earth, I need to know how to war in the spirit.

My prayer life is my lifeline and without prayer and the spiritual covering of my community, I don’t know where I would be today. I thank Jesus because the Bible says He is making intercessions on our behalf. He saved me and He will sustain me.

“And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.” - Ephesians 6:18

I began to embrace my calling

God desired my obedience. He desired my “YES.” Throughout my journey, I’ve come to realize that though the road may not always be easy, it is always worth it.

Obedience to my calling as an author and evangelist has led so many people to Christ. Through sharing my testimony and spreading the Gospel, I thank God that people have been delivered and come to know Jesus as their Lord and Savior.

Now, I say “YES” to the Lord with joy and peace, knowing that HE is so WORTH my obedience.

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” - Romans 8:28